I feel very blessed to have a job during these times. The job that I once enjoyed, however, is wearing on me. Maybe it is burnout, or maybe it is just a case of the blues. I don’t really know. The never ending to-do list continues to get longer and longer, while I seem to be working longer hours than ever. In the past, I considered this job security. Furthermore, I have coworkers that just cannot be bothered with work related tasks while they are on the clock. I hear personal phone calls all day. I have also noticed a coworker balancing her checkbook, cutting her nails, and shopping on the internet. Once the personal tasks are completed, their workday is nearly over and they would not want to start on an assignment with such a short amount of time remaining. All the while, more and more work is piled on the employees that put forth an effort. Previously, I overlooked such activities, chalking it up to a drawback of working for state government that was balanced by all of the benefits. Now, I feel like I am being punished because I am willing to work while others are not.
Needless to say, I have n0t had the time or mental energy to keep up with biweekly blog posts. I have been left feeling physically, mentally, and emotional drained at the end of each workday and work week. Like all things, this feeling will pass. For now, however, I am praying for a major blizzard to shut down roads and stop all traffic in my area. Too bad that it is 80 degrees and sunny outside.
